By Tyler Sullivan
After 18.1, I am ranked in the 1 percent in the world. Do I still have it? Yes and no. Let me explain.
What do I have? I still have elite fitness with 3-5 classes a week (3-minute workouts some days), 80 percent diet adherence, 7-8 hours of sleep, no extra workouts or workout anxiety. I have balance with my family, my business, my career, my clients (business and gym), and my personal interests. I am more intentional with the finite resource of time.
What don’t I have? A tired body, workout stress, critical attitude and need to define my identify by performance or fitness. Yes, I still struggle with leaving performance on the table. However, I choose not to compare my current self to my past self, because my past self is no longer someone I’m willing to be. Therefore, I move on knowing that I’m healthier, happier, and a better dad, owner, manager, coach and overall person.
And now the CrossFit Open is upon us — the competitive opportunity to perform our very best. It’s highly intense and it’s spectacular. But it also opens the door to comparison. We become disappointed by our own results when see our performance on the leaderboard or even gauge ourselves against how we performed in the past (Open or in WODs). Being outside the competitive circle now, it’s hard to watch others compare themselves and thus relinquish their joy, because it negates all the hard work they put in to get to that point. It also fails to show a fair view of what their old performing self paid that their current less-performing self is no longer willing to (ie: exchanging family time with training time, etc).
Eight years of CrossFit Opens have taught me the end result isn’t the sum of the game. It’s the journey — what we’ve learned, who we’ve gained as friends, who was by our side the entire time — that really matters most. If we’re fit, and the top 1 percent, good! Top 50 percent? Keep at it. We must keep balance, keep perspective, keep on learning and not use fitness to identify who we are. And when the Open is over, more than anything, we need to be grateful to be living and alive.